1. |
Moratorium
03:28
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Moratorium
Moratorium
on fighting
We used to have such a good time
Fighting
I used to snatch up your cd and you’re crying
Cry crying
Crying
Cry crying
And Andrew took your diet coke
And then there’d be a scene til something broke
And mom would have to tell us to stop being shitheads
And there were dish towels on fire
Every day there seemed to be something on fire
Something on fire
Fire fire
Something on fire
Fire fire
Moratorium
Moratorium
On fighting
We used to have such a good time fighting
Until you came to us
And we put down our weapons
they were still covered in blood and we still had a thirst for
sprayin’ each other’s internal organs onto the sky
and we play
nice
nice nice
and we play
nice
nice nice
but behind those kind eyes there were warrior eyes
behind those kind eyes there were warrior eyes
moratorium
moratorium
on fighting
on fighting
on fighting
we used to have such a good time
on fighting
on fighting
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2. |
Dogs on the Bed
00:42
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Dogs on the Bed
It’s not you love I don’t wanna be apart
I’m just tired of looking at your hammerhead shark
You know I get uncomfortable with dogs on the bed
Maybe when we’re making love they could stay outside instead
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3. |
Hello Face
02:07
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Hello Face
Hello face it’s weird to see you
I try and avoid you you’re never on my mind
Hello peepholes someone dug you out
To let the light in but there’s never near enough
This body makes me nervous
I’m such a fragile circus
Prattling around the house
Someday they’ll let me out
Hello dad’s nose stuck here like a pickle
A pyramid a ski jump plopped there in the middle
Hello legs thanks for carrying me around
Without you I’d be stuck here everyone needs to move
This body makes me nervous
Bubbling with purpose
Call me a dreamer
But I could use a breather
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4. |
Brain Wars
02:56
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Brain Wars
I know I’m not graceful never been accused of being cool
I can’t keep my nails cut always run out of fuel
My mom says my mustache doesn’t quite work
One time I got shingles goddamn did that hurt
And my first kiss was my cousin Liz
High on Sunkist on the Jungle Jim
Did you notice my scar I fell from a tree
Chasing a cat I was twenty-three
I’m not good with names don’t go to parties
I never eat Brie I prefer hard cheese
And my real dad is now a woman
I see her cutting meat at the deli
Sometimes it feels like my good and bad selves
Are locked in some harrowing war
Vying to gain control of my brain
And I can’t take it any more
I can’t take it any more
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5. |
Bread to bread
03:27
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Bread to Bread
God I didn’t wanna take any pictures I wish you didn’t see me
I would like to become invisible
And crawl-up on the wall like a
horror baby
Baby
Why do I lose my nerve
When you come over
I had a plan/ to end this
I said to myself I might as well be a clown
Oh I wanted that warm hot bread
Is this what it comes down to
I get kinda hungry and then it lets me off the hook
I forget everything I’m doing and my plan
To finish up
with you
I feel like a fool I do I do
I like living in someone else’s conch shell I’m a
hermit crab that
Steals other people’s houses
I like to imagine
that is my life
this is my bed
and my closet
My clothes are always my own
My clothes are always my own
So is this the way it will be
I do believe that I love you
I would rather just see
if we could go bread to bread
Meal to meal
I feel like a fool I do I do
I feel like a fool I do I do
I’m tired I’m a tired crab
I missed you I can see all your brokenness
You’re like a cracked desert floor
I can see all your cracks do I want your cracks
I love you when you lie next to me
I love you I’ll
one day make a move
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6. |
Kick in the Ribs
02:27
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A Kick in the Ribs
I’m not the rabbit that sat on your deck all summer
Waiting for you to come out
While you watched Netflix chain smoked and wrote poems
Holed up inside of your house
I’m more like a mirror that helps when you’re bleary
And tries to reel you in
I’m not your aunt Cindy who says you look pretty
Even when you gotten too thin
I’m not your postman who flirts through the window
I’ll mean it when I ask how you’ve been
I wanna be realer help you see clearer
Everyone always blows smoke
Maybe a shower I’ll make a sandwich
And sort through the bills on the table
I can’t sit idle hands tied immobile
Watching you grow more disabled
I’m not your mother who never comes over
And sends you the checks in the mail
Then when she calls up you never answer
Somehow she feels like she’s failed
I try to be better we all need some pressure
Or maybe a kick in the ribs
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7. |
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Maybe I Don’t Wanna Be With Anyone
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
I do quite well on my own
On my own
What’s it gonna be?
God I love to put my pillows all 4 of them
All over the bed like it’s a bear den
I only use one underneath my neck
I’ll weave my own basket I’ll keep stretching myself out
I’ll be the whole thing
Maybe I wanna be alone forever
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
I can do just fine on my cell phone
On my own
I’ll tell you how it goes
And I have to tell you
It feels so different
When I’m in one of those places
Where I might die if I don’t see you
I might die in a terrible death
I might melt down like a candle wick
to the ground
Through the floor boards
And oh be forgotten in the foundation of the house
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
Maybe I don’t wanna be with anyone
I can do just fine on my own
Tell how it goes
And the end I’m going for 104 years
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8. |
New Symbols
01:31
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New Symbols
When I think of new symbols
I make a list of pictures more
Than a list it’s a helpful okay
I’ll stop and be clearer there’s a
Lot of light too much what can I
Hold a bucket and catch some of
Your essential oils can’t you
Unhaunt this place give me a
Prize for my sparkle you’ll
never be different should I sign
relief I want seagull choruses
I want elephants
I want squawking birds big leaves
I’ve promised more to me
I’m weed-whacking
It’s a lifetime it begins it whacks
I’m weed-whacking
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9. |
Regular
01:55
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Regular Photobooth
I got the license plate
Wrote it down on my wrist
Then it started raining
Now it doesn’t exist
There’s something wrong with
I’m better off on my own
Cars drive by and heckle me
Whenever I leave my home
I’m lost I fall I wanna be regular
But I’m not I’m wrong
Planes passing overhead
Where do they go
I always fantasize
One of them might explode
There’s something wrong with me
You said it when we were high
Now it’s all I think about
You can see it in my eyes
I cough I trip I wanna be regular
I wanna be regular but I’m not
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10. |
Toronto
02:38
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Toronto
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto let’s go let’s go
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto let’s go let’s go
We have a way of looking
At each other sand on skin on
Your mouth makes this funny condom
I just try not to flinch
And the rest of me is at the beach
Sunning on your raise
just my admin building struggles with delays
Unscheduled feelings and forays
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto let’s go let’s go
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto let’s go let’s go
Let’s go let’s go let’s go
Let’s go let’s go let’s go
I know these people
I’ve popped out to meet em
My killer color raisins
The fancy tub vanilla
You hushed a duck I ate em
My mother swears you’re charming
But the lettuce and the onion and the wayward tunnel out to sea my god we’re out to sea
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto it’s all I’m hearing
Toronto let’s go let’s go
Let’s go let’s go let’s go
Let’s go let’s go let’s go
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11. |
I'm All Frozen
01:27
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I'm All Frozen
I’m all frozen
Like a pair of pants
That’s been dipped in water
And then put in the freezer
Or outside if it’s cold outside
And left for a night
As long as it doesn’t thaw over night
I don’t wanna move
I’m like a tree
If you planted a tree
and it stayed there
And wasn’t dug up
and it wasn’t moved
Or ground up in a chipper
I’m not chipper
I’m just thinking about supper
I want more food than this
I forgot to buy the groceries
Goddamn it all
Oh
It’s so hard to do normal things
Like that
Imagine if
I was in charge
of someone else
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12. |
Whit's End
02:08
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Whit’s End
I’m at my whit’s end
Can you help me figure out
I’m at my whit’s end
Can you help me help me out
Brain can’t do it
And
Rain in sewage
My parents through it
My longing to do it
And the land keeps striking back
The pipes can’t seem to fill it out
The land knows we’re dying back
Drying out
But my sanity’s just around the bend
Can you, would you document
The river’s just around the bend
Can’t you can’t you
And the land keeps on striking back
The pipes can’t seem to fill it out
The land knows we’re dying back
Drying out
I’m at my whit’s end
Can you help me figure out
I’m at my whit’s end
Can you help me help me out
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13. |
Little Squirrel
01:03
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Little Squirrel
Shit yeah it’s me hiding way up in this tree
And the view from here’s not to be believed
Goddamn my mom we never really get along
Maybe it’s the mania or maybe the drugs that she’s on
I’m a little squirrel perched on a pile of nuts
They’ll never find me If I can keep my big mouth shut
I never keep my big mouth shut
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14. |
Smelling Smells
02:25
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Smelling Smells
I’m smelling a smell and I’m worried
That the smell might be me
But I don’t care selfishly
I’m on the bus but where am I going
Maybe I took the wrong medicine
I think I ate your estrogen
There’s all of this air
But I still can’t breathe
Maybe these old lungs
Are full of disease
I bought an ice cream at the deli
But now I’m worried it’s melting
Where is my stop who is yelling
I remember when we were young
My brother bred these rabbits
Kept them hidden in our closet
With piles of rotting carrots
And somehow
That’s the smell I’m smelling now
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15. |
This Year is the Year
04:51
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This Year is the Year
These birds these beautiful birds
They look good enough to eat
And the neighbor working on his barn
We always joke it would make a nice fire
My roof leaks and I can’t find the source
But I always blame the squirrels
I wish I knew what my grandpa knew
About fixing the sink and all other things
But this year this year is the year
That I learn to bake a cake
And darn my holy socks
And get that squirrel out of my walls
Things are only getting weirder
I can’t remember a warmer winter
I’m not speaking to my dad
And I’m bracing for civil war
I know I know you were only being generous
Sorry your foot ended up in my mouth
I rarely have guests
And I hop that you’ll come back
I used to be a boxer a skinny pimpled boxer
But I couldn’t take a punch
That’s always been my problem in life
I could never take a punch
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16. |
Life Purpose
00:19
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Life Purpose
Yes
Come in
I’ve been waiting
For you
Life purpose
I’ve been waiting
For you
I made dinner
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17. |
Take My Toaster
01:52
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Take My Toaster
I’ve been fucked up like a new truck
Driving in a demolition derby I feel squirrelly
I know my body doesn’t like me
We’ve been going at each other all these years it’s so weird
Take my toaster and my old shirts
And the books I never got around to read I concede
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18. |
Piggy Back
02:44
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Piggy Back
We are all each other’s monsters
You’ll know it’s true I put the
Apple on the bed hold it there
Look at it look at it
I’m hoping your hair curled the
Same as your dad’s
There’s a semblance you should
See these words I read
Look at it look at it
Give me a piggy back
In the afterlife is there freedom
From choice it sucks here
Give me a piggy back
In the afterlife is there freedom
From choice it sucks here
I ate pizza in my bed
I’m adult shaped that’s it
There’s more a magical kingdom
I’ve been in a storm so I take
Care nailed down windows in
The wind I went to Walmart in
A small town community it’s where
My church I went there last Wednesday
I’ll be at the dock at 10
You can change your mind
You can always change
I forgive the things you said
You can change your mind
Give me a piggy back
In the afterlife is there freedom
From choice it sucks here
I ate pizza in my bed I’m adult shaped that’s it
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