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My Ascent
03:33
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My Ascent
Light was leaching around this listless room
As I sat paralyzed utterly consumed
Watching the ceiling the crack that’s advancing
Imperceptibly inching expanding
Even the ghosts here have long since slipped away
But not me I’m too afraid
There’s the birdcage dusty and deserted
Somehow she freed herself but nobody heard it
All my molecules slowly come undone
There were warning signs seen by everyone
Even the ghosts here have long since slipped away
But not me I’m too afraid
You said we were making memories
As though you weren’t in that moment
Now I’m captive in this living room
Hoping for my own ascent
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2. |
The Hopper Window
03:42
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The Hopper Window
Burning trash in the basement fireplace
Hiding the smell of your smoke break
The bottle of rye hidden behind the furnace
The remedy and the cause of your headache
Sweep the cement and fill up the corners
With the things you no longer can use
Moldy old boxes and grey wooden crates
Piled high with yesterday’s news
You never told me who fired that shot
through the hopper window
Was the mangled bullet you kept in a drawer
meant for you or meant for someone else?
They say you left the city in a hurry
With secrets as deep as a canyon
Moved to the country, bought all new things
And the old things could rot in the dungeon
A sofa from the 30s in outdated yellow
A mirror with a flattering curve
A rusty set of weights for a once handsome fellow
A love letter you no longer deserve
You never told me who fired that shot
through the hopper window
Was the mangled bullet you kept in a drawer
meant for you or meant for someone else
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3. |
Ladder to the Attic
03:45
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Ladder to the Attic
Pull down the attic ladder but don’t climb up
I thought that you were made of stronger stuff
Clean out the magazines stuffed under the bed
Do the things that leave you lost inside your head
It’s only been a few months really
I know you hoped that you might heal me
Walk through the swampy field feel your feet get wet
Let all the mockingbirds help you to forget
There’s the wonky treehouse I built when you were kids
It might be where that noisy squirrel still lives
Maybe your mother wouldn’t approve
I was only thinking of you
I swear I was only thinking of you
It had been so long since I could think straight
This kind of darkened thing swells and permeates
I laid the green tarp on that dusty floor
Took out the sidearm from that worthless war
You said that you were confused
I was only thinking of you
I swear I was only thinking of you
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4. |
Party Pieces
04:12
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Party Pieces
The floral centerpiece from last thanksgiving
Has withered to poignancy
Once the loudest room of the house on any given night
Now as silent as the attic
Things have a way of being quiet
when love leaves a home
Chased by the demons of a past grievance
Learn to see the wonder
Sanctify the spirits of the dining room
Sanctify the spirits of the dining room
It made the guests feel like kings
It hosted all kinds of things:
Party pieces
Jokes and melodies
Stories of the sea
That joy never leaves
Never left at all
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5. |
The Shy Old Artist
03:58
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The Shy Old Artist
The shy old artist started coming around in 1964
Courting, out of character, the country girl, Annie
They would talk until the wee small hours
Until the artist was too tired to drive home
The small solarium had a pull out daybed
Where he would sleep, surrounded
By a jungle of spindly houseplants
And Annie would go to bed upstairs
On early summer mornings around 5 AM the sun would start to flood
through the picture windows that ran from floor to ceiling
And the artist had to cover his eyes with his long sleeve tee shirt
If he wanted to sleep past dawn
He usually left before Annie got up
to feed the cats
But sometimes he would wait for her
To come and sit with him in the sunroom and make small talk
Watching her free morning hair shimmer in the fern dappled sunlight
The long vintage nightdress that didn’t match her age
The floor tile cold on the bottom of her bare feet
All the tiny sacrifices that lead to love
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6. |
Episodes
04:04
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Episodes
Bathwater’s gone lukewarm and my skin’s turned all pruny
I’m pretend smoking cigarettes like a scene in a movie
Dad’s still in the garage and mom’s making meatloaf
My mind’s consumed with this buzzing mosquito
All the kids at school must know what has happened
It’s gonna be much worse than I’d imagined
I wish I could hide in here soaking forever
I don’t know what’s holding us together
I wish there was some antidote to all of her episodes
The bowling ball the flirting firetrucks and cursing
Promises apologies blaming some made up disease
I wish that I could leave this house but I’m never coming out
Light starts to fade away I feel cold and clammy
Stand up and dry myself put on my jammies
Lay on the bathroom floor and look up at the ceiling
Some days I don’t know what I’m doing
First time it happened we were at the carnival
The rides the horses cotton candy everything was wonderful
Then a look across her face like lightning had struck
She’s like a volcano ready to erupt
I worry those same sick ghosts tangled through my mom like ropes
Hover here inside of me flooding my biology
As the room turn nearly dark black I feel scared and trapped
I know that I should leave this room but somehow I’m marooned
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Mom in the Kitchen
05:45
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Mom in the Kitchen
The card table has collapsed
Under the weight of newspapers and maps
I hear my mother in the kitchen
Making voices for scenes she reenacts
I look for meaning in the things I should forget
While she smokes her cigarettes
She talks about her missing keys
All the locks that they once opened
They say it’s easier with time
I haven’t even begun hoping
There’s a land between crazy and quirky
I know she never meant to hurt me
The wallpaper has been coming down for decades
We all need to break free
I see my father at the sink doing dishes
He’s been on my mind lately
I pull the flowered curtain back
It’s always dusk inside of this room
All the apples have grown soft
I’ll make a pie sometime soon
I tried to leave this place so many times
Maybe I’ve grown resigned
She’s talking gossip with the plants
It’s kind of funny in a certain light
I pull my pages off the fridge
Start reading stories that I’ve typed
Outside a rabbit listens quiet in the weeds
As wind moves through the trees
There’s a fissure where my life split right in two
I’m both a man and a chicken
While I’m out there making waves out in the water
I’m also stuck here in this kitchen
Your blood just below the surface seems to visibly race and it can see the line of regret cross your face.
Just below the windowsill there’s a fragile rabbit listening trying to make a word for everything
The wind comes in reminding you of strength and hope a
You’ve started leaving this s town too many times to count and the aftermath of your decisions cause a fissure where you are and where you could have been.
Experiments on n human behavior carried out in the back of a Buick there’s the moments of paralysis but you’re working your way through it.
If you can just find a ribbon for your grandfathers typewriter
The way we marginalize the undesired
String our shoes closed with wires
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8. |
The Passing of Seasons
05:22
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The Passing of Seasons
Watching as you dressed trying to stay quiet
Your rings and your stockings like a delicate pirate
You in the bathroom readying noises
Then from the outside enchanting bird voices
I’d lay like a mummy planning the day
Never suspecting you’d slip away
There on the wall the rabbit you drew
The one from your childhood I had tattooed
Pine on the ceilings to cover the cracks
The chair near the window where you collapsed
I tried for ten long years to find another home
Living like an ascetic cloistered alone
How can this be the same house the same lifetime
Me still sleeping in our bed with you in decline
I took down the photos of us at the shore
And all of those paintings we couldn’t afford
You called me an alien my needs were so few
Just a quiet corner and some solitude
You’d call to my office when I hadn’t eaten
Joking I’d missed the passing of seasons
I still have the pillow you soaked as you dreamed
But now there’s another that curls beside me
As she falls asleep with her head on my chest
I stare at the ceiling my mind all a mess
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9. |
From the Roof
03:01
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From the Roof
I was on the roof looking through a telescope at the sky
Suddenly everything seemed awry
The way the constellations were positioned felt untrue
Somehow it made me think of you
This isn’t that same moon we were so enamored of
The night you said you felt something like love
These aren’t the same stars we hung those wishes on
They must have moved along
Maybe I was drunk maybe there was something in my eye
Things look different seaside
I could feel the wind passing through my porous skin
I forget how to begin (loosening particles within)
This isn’t that same moon we were so enamored of
The night you said you felt something like love
These aren’t the same stars we hung those wishes on
They must have moved along
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10. |
2 Car Garage
03:30
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2 Car Garage
The two car garage had a single door
Just lifting up the thing would make you sore
Mid-century footprint and curtained windows
pullstring light casting evil shadows
Look down and step with care
There’s motor oil stains everywhere
Don’t breathe too long or too deeply
Healthy lungs don’t come cheaply
The two car garage had an eight foot shelf
With enough of a leap you could hang yourself
oh but perish the thought just an illustration
There are gentler ways to ease frustration
Stow away the rowing machine
You’ll never again look eighteen
There’s an active hornets nest
in your mother’s antique hope chest
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