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Dearest Former Self

by burst & bloom records

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i've written this letter before to myself sent by a messenger to 1997 some things are better for sure, but for your health before you open it you may want to sit down there are things herein that will upset you there are things that may surprise you there are things in here you might find unbelievable but in general, i think you would approve don't worry about finding love, because you do but you will lose it too, and that part is a doozy but you'll be better for it, gotta push through i can't tell you what to avoid, because who knows where i'd be now? there are things herein that will upset you there are things that may surprise you there are things in here you might find unbelievable but in general, i think you would approve
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It must have been the heat of the moment You had to make a move, man You've been up all night You had to go at dawn The heat of the moment When the truth starts to burn You had to make a move man You had to run Disappear in the moonlight before the sun comes on I know the words get ugly When the alcohol comes on Got to head for the hedges Feeling regret Staring at the big sky When it brings on what you're gonna get So your stomach Feels tied in circles You think maybe this time You've gone to far Wish you could let go Of last night Know what you were Know what you are You could just let go of what you said You could say I'm sorry You could show regret You don't need to hang on To who you were You can run just let go You could go back Back to her Yeah I know when it burns them You feel like nothing Everything's come on And you went too far You could just let go And go back to her You could say I'm sorry I really went a little too far You could say I'm sorry (and make her a short stack)
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BROWN CRAYON Pay attention A brown crayon doesn’t taste like chocolate You really ought to give Faulkner another chance Some indiscretions will never stop dogging you Carl doesn’t really have your best interests at heart The Bonzo Dog Band are an endless revelation That idea about pizza is better than you think Always strive to be kind to your liver Jennifer is every bit as wonderful as she seems Produced by Dusty Potts at Superbia February 2016
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Distant Youth Hello to my distant youth... You really weren't a hellion but you worried me still Way too much time on pondering fate When you'd barely been kissed or had pissed in the lake You looked at the world saw the mud on it's face Loving the Brits but lamenting the States Drunk on orange juice and cold black tea Eating ramen noodles at near light speed No time for Questions There's no time to think Hello to my distant youth... The world got darker when you questioned your place Singing along to the Smiths on cassette Driving in Boston which I'll never forget Then out in the world on your own so to speak Up in Seattle looked at Rainier's peak Struggled along for a year and a day Barely food to eat next to nothing for pay No time for Questions There's no time to think What did you want to say? Think I wasn't listening I know you suffered in your day There's time a plenty for you still Hello to my distant youth... Clouds in your vision and darts on your tongue You never quite saw what you had on your plate Always were searching for a better debate Tried and true you've got a noble heart You hung on in instead of falling apart Despite some bumps on a dark highway Dug your heels in, soon were made in the shade Copyright 2016 Jonathan Blakeslee
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Movie marathons saved for the Sunday matinee Rooting for the girls sporting tattoos Our young adults would surface still unsure we’d earned a place other than inside each other’s shoes Oh, she got me like no one ever would again Waving off the setting sun we ordered finer days Midnight finds, the city all aglow Daring chair to chair as if the music went on playing Forgetting that the tide could come and go Oh, she got me like no one ever would again Faith’s all we had our boat, floating up and down we’d go oohhh Saving each other from, storm after storm, sailing it felt like home Oh, she got me like no one ever would again
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Hey Kid by Craig Werth, Feb 2016 hey kid, give it a rest relax and breathe in the pine trees you’re gonna burn your heart out caring so hard you are not nearly strong enough to carry the weight of the girls and the boys who are not happy enough or well enough, or safe enough who won’t ever know your name hey kid empty your head just once in a while smile and be hollow drown some cookies in milk hoist up a pirate flag and laugh and sleep through the night for once sleep through the night.
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Taking my time on losing my mind Looking for a sign or a clue I'm writing a letter, a post note reminder A long 3 ring binder, double sided letter to you I've been in love, I've been broke up I have been bankrupt and blue I hold no regrets on my growing debt My bank account, blood cell account don't account for anything I do Why, Do I Fall in love and fail, re-write the tale of lovers scorned in hell Why, Do I Drink till I'm high, sleep when I'm stoned Cry when I'm alone Have no discipline, where do I begin I always had a well thought out plan Lack of concentration, some form of mediation A gym subscription that never got much use Why, Do I Fall in love and fail, re-write the tale of lovers scorned in hell Why, Do I Drink till I'm high, sleep when I'm stoned Cry when I'm alone
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You’re torn in two, You’re feeling used. It isn’t true. There is no space for me, You missed what you could be. It isn’t true. You lost a lot of things, You lost what love can bring. It isn’t true, It isn’t true (Repeat)
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Leave It All Behind You're pretty pissed off And you're only five You're gonna run away, Find somewhere to hide And leave it all behind They don't quite understand you at home You're the kind of kid Who just needs to roam and be free To go around the block So get out your little suitcase Mom says she'll even help you pack Put on your best game face And say that you're Never coming back You walk down the street Towards your neighbor's home You find a tree to hang your robe And you sit with your teddy bear You never did bargain on those hunger pains Or on the fact that it looks like rain or even snow Though it's only July So pick up your little suitcase That Mom gladly helped you pack Put on your best sad face And ask if they'll take you back You were pretty pissed off for a little girl Just a glimpse into the present world So just smile and leave it all behind Just smile and leave it all behind Steffanie
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Periphery Dearest former self I never knew you well But every moment chimes like a ringing bell Did you think about where you’d be now Or contemplate the whys or the hows Dearest seventeen I am sorry I never think of you did you think of me In the spaces in between Dear departed youth you were so obtuse Pointing at your past was no excuse Were there halcyon days in that mess you made Did the long sleepless nights make you afraid Dearest seventeen I am sorry I never think of you did you think of me In the spaces in between Dearest younger me in my periphery Sorry I lacked eyes with which to see There’s no recompense no easy defense I’ll chalk it all up to coincidence
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This album was made as part of the RPM Challenge during February of 2016. Participants were asked to write and record a song that, in some way, addressed some version of their former self.

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released April 4, 2016

Mastered by Marc McElroy at The Electric Cave in Portsmouth NH. All artists reserve full rights to their songs.

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